SharkHat
Aquatic Headwear Fanatic
This is a difficult post for me to write, and some may tell me that it's an unnecessary gesture, but I feel compelled to apologize and also put some information out there.
Shortly after the St Louis Tour Van stop, I disappeared from the forums. This happened to also be during the SeeMore M-Series testing for which I had been selected, which is a point of guilt for me.
In September my marriage took a significant turn for the worse. After only two years of marriage, things had gone in an ugly direction that is very difficult to describe. There were a number of factors that led to this, including financial problems and mental health. There were a mix of emotions running through me, shame at the thought of being a failure, fear of losing my wife and my son, thoughts that I must not be a good person (or why else would someone hate me so much).
This started to affect me deeply. It even soured my interaction with those of you who I was lucky to meet with at the Tour Stop. Even though I enjoyed that day immensely, there was still a dark cloud over everything in my mind. Shortly afterward, I retreated into a shell of introversion. I stopped participating in the forum, and did not meet my obligation as a forum tester. This led to an even greater sense of shame, and more seclusion. I did communicate some of these things to JB and Morgan at the time, and then retreated completely.
For that, I am truly sorry.
I am happy to say that things are improving at home now. My wife and I were at the edge of separating, but we have come back from that edge and are now better for it. Communication is improving, and happiness has returned to our household. I personally feel good about myself again, and am happy to be able to return to THP and find some friendly faces again.
-Dennis
He's still crazy though
-The Hat
Shortly after the St Louis Tour Van stop, I disappeared from the forums. This happened to also be during the SeeMore M-Series testing for which I had been selected, which is a point of guilt for me.
In September my marriage took a significant turn for the worse. After only two years of marriage, things had gone in an ugly direction that is very difficult to describe. There were a number of factors that led to this, including financial problems and mental health. There were a mix of emotions running through me, shame at the thought of being a failure, fear of losing my wife and my son, thoughts that I must not be a good person (or why else would someone hate me so much).
This started to affect me deeply. It even soured my interaction with those of you who I was lucky to meet with at the Tour Stop. Even though I enjoyed that day immensely, there was still a dark cloud over everything in my mind. Shortly afterward, I retreated into a shell of introversion. I stopped participating in the forum, and did not meet my obligation as a forum tester. This led to an even greater sense of shame, and more seclusion. I did communicate some of these things to JB and Morgan at the time, and then retreated completely.
For that, I am truly sorry.
I am happy to say that things are improving at home now. My wife and I were at the edge of separating, but we have come back from that edge and are now better for it. Communication is improving, and happiness has returned to our household. I personally feel good about myself again, and am happy to be able to return to THP and find some friendly faces again.
-Dennis
He's still crazy though
-The Hat
